epestre4a... alla dn niw8w to idio... dn 3erw... niw8w kati na me pnigei...

Dn 3erw an einai i arrwstia... apla dn exw ore3i na vgw... x8es dn vgika... dn eixa ore3i... dn i8ela na dw kna... simera pali piga gia ena kafe k zitisa na figw gt dn imoun kala... k to para3eno einai pws dn pira to autokinito na paw moni m opws kanw ka8e fora... zitisa na me paroun... enw ka8e fora to prwto prm p kanw einai na parw to autokinito k na kanw volta auti ti fora dn 8elw na odigisw... dn 8elw na paw kapou... dn 8elw na paw kan tepee p einai k i mousiki m...

Einai apla ta panta berdemena mesa m... dn 8elw na dw kna k apla niw8w pws pantou yparxoun atoma k me vlepoun... dn exw ore3i na vgw e3w k na gelasw... an k anapolw k perimena me tosi laxtara na r8w k na perasw 3ana osa perasame persi... toso apla k toso omorfa pragmata... apla dn exw dinami k ore3i...

Lipamai... gt ir8a me oneira ma kapou ta pire i vroxi k o anemos...

...Epistrofi meta ta tests....

Epistrefw meta apo kairo... meta apo kairo p katapina tis ske4eis m... p tis kratousa mesa k tis akouge monaxa o eautos m...

Epistrefw edw... meta apo mia peripeteia me tin ygeia m p akomi dn teleiwse...

Twra oti epa8a dn eimai sgr an to pa8a ap to agxos i apo kati allo... apo ti mia perimena pws to savvato 8a moun kala gt 8a feuge to agxos alla ap tin alli plisiazei triti k akomi dn niw8w ka8olou kala...
Se kapoia fasi, kata ti diarkeia twn tests m... apla anarwtioumoun gt agxwnomoun toso... an einai gia ton eauto m, gia tous ka8igites m, gia tous ypoloipous simfoitites m, gia tous ypoloipous edw p m 3eroun i gia tous filous k tous dikous m... Anarwtioumoun ti me fovizei toso stin apotyxia... K meta tin pempti omws anepneusa... gt imoun sgr pws eixa tin prwti m apotyxia se 8ema mathimatwn (gt gia ta alla 8emata mia sketi apotyxia eimai)... k dn eniw8a na ftaiw omws... k eniwsa pws 8a apogoiteua pollous... alla eixa ka8ari ti sinidisi m... k mallon vrika tin apantisi m...

Einai polla p dn exw grapsei gi autes tis meres... einai polla p dn exw pei... imoun se mia katastasi zwis - 8anatou... eniw8a nekri p apla perpatouse k evriske dinami na dilwsei parousa sta mathimata... Kapou konta stin tetarti eniwsa to mialo m na svinei... eniwsa ti zalada pio entona k ti lipo8imia na plisiazei... alla katafera k sta8ika sta podia m me mia dinami p dn 3erw apo pou tin antlisa...

K oli ti vdomada ais8anomoun asxima mono gia ena atomo... ena atomo p dn efige stigmi apo dipla mou... ena atomo p se ka8e lepto me skeftotan k itan ekei... to atomo p emeine 3ipnio olo to vradi apla gia na akouei to klama m k na me iremei... to mono atomo p 8a ekane auto gia mena... gt kanontas auto simaine pws emene pisw ap ts dikes tou douleies... alla kamia fora ta atoma p isws na deixneis pws dn einai konta s... i ta atoma p ston kosmo fainontai makria s... einai ta pio kontina s tlk...

Eimai poly para3enos anthrwpos ta pame... To 3analeme gt to akomi pio para3eno ekeines tis meres p dn etrwga k apla eklaiga k ponousa... dn me eftane i agwnia ekeinwn twn imerwn... eixa megaliteri agwnia gia to ti 8a apoginw sto telos tou xronou an auto olo einai ap to agxos... k to niwsa pws 8a xa8w tote... k to skeftomoun... k to 3anaskeftomoun k ginomoun xeirotera... k katariomouna ton eauto m p eimai anthrwpos p skeftetai to avrio k dn zei mono to twra...

Autes oi meres omws efigan... k twra prospa8w na vrw ton eauto mou... 8a paw pisw... na kanw e3etaseis na vrw an iparxei kati pa8ologiko na to ry8misw... an oxi... me tis diakopes elpizw na ginw kalitera...

Gt 3ereis oi diakopes stin kypro k eidika ta xristougenna einai arketa kales... einai liges meres k periorismenes k prp mesa se autes na deis siggeneis k filous... Alla dn boreis na fantasteis ti kalo 8a m kanei na parw mia agkalia ap tin kolliti mou... na vgw k na kanw trelles me ton kollito m... na perasw a3exastes nixtes se clubs k cafes me tis files m ap to sxoleio, na dw ts filous m ap to fisiko a8inwn p ts vlepw spania ( k genika ta atoma ap tin a8ina) ... Akomi k ti stigmi p 8a gemisoun ta matia tis mamas m molis me dei tin perimenw... k perimenw k mia paidiki a8wa agkalia alla egkardia ap to vaftistiri m... gt me perimenei... k twra pia 5 etwn 8imatai tin nona tou... niw8ei tin agapi tis k tin pe8ima... k leei stin mama m "8a r8ei i nona m ap tin agglia se liges meres 8a r8ei k 8a dei to dentro mas k 8a dei k to diko sas! Dn ir8e i nona m stin giorti tou sxoleio mou... alla eprepe na paei sti giorti tou sxoleiou tis stin agglia"... P na 3eres mikre m aggele ti glentia kaname edw :) Alla auti i a8wotita t... k autou k tou aderfou tou k twn ypoloipwn 3 paidiwn p perimenw pws k pws na dw 8a m xarisoun kati p xasa tis teleutaies vdomades... kati p anazitw na parw pisw... to xamogelo mou...

"I hate the way you only call
When you've had too much to drink
I hate the hard questions you ask
That constantly make me think
I hate that you punish me
For all the things I do
I hate it that no matter what I say
It won't be good enough for you.
I hate the way you ignore me
And pretend you're having fun
I hate the words you tell me
That make my heart go numb
I hate the way your girlfriend stares
Like she's laughing in my face
I hate the way you leave with her
You're gone without a trace
I hate it that you are like me
You keep me hanging on
I hate the cd you made me.
It's us in every song.
I hate your clean face, your voice and the fact you are so tall
But most of all I hate that I don't hate you
Not even close, Not even a little bit, Not even at all"

Einai 3 to prwi... se 5 wres prp na eimai 3ipnia na etoimazomai gia alli mia mera sto panepistimio... vsk gia tin teleutaia gemati mera sto panepistimio gia to 2008...
Ki omws dn lew na paw na koimi8w... apla niw8w ena fovo... pws an 3aplwsw dn 8a 3anasikwstw 3ana... i apla dn 8a katavalw prospa8eia na sikwstw...

Genika akougetai pws oi arrwstoi p katafernoun k 3epernoun varies as8eneies k zoun mia fisiologiki zwi gemati zwntania sta ypoloipa tous xronia einai autoi p apla to 8elisan poli... k akoma k se komma na vriskontan polemousan gia na r8oun pisw sti zwi... gt apla AGAPOUSAN ti zwi...

Kamia fora exw ton fovo(i k elpida vathia mesa m) pws egw logw tou oti dn exw auto to pa8os oute tin agapi gia ti zwi... an pa8w kati 8a pe8anw... etsi apla.. xwris pali, xwris prospa8eia... Twra auto kalo i kako?

Kamia fora auto to elpizw... to parakalw... alla allote - opws k simera allote- einai kati p to fovamai... einai kati p to tremw... k isws einai gt niw8w tin apeili mias arrwstias... isws einai gt niw8w pws 8a diapistw8ei i as8eneia...
Ap tin alli omws... dn 8elw na paw ston giatro... fovamai mi m pei diafora... k farmakeutikes agwges... k 8erapeies... k dn exw xrono gia tetoia... apla 8elw to kefali m isixo...

Vevaia 8a m peis poso isixo borei na einai to kefali s an psinesai oli mera ston pyreto? Sini8eia einai auto... to sini8isame k auto... sini8isame k tosous allous ponous... autos 8a mas peira3ei??? 8a sini8isoume k ton neo pono... 8a sini8isoume k ta nea symptwmata... k apla 8a epizisoume...
Gt apla erxetai i diskoli periodos... (idi ti dianioume dld) k prp na exw oli ti dinami m edw... k pou8ena allou...

Ki as tin arrwstia na perimenei... ki an to dei auto enas ap tous kollitous m 8a me vrizei gt epimenei pws PANW AP OLA I YGEIA!... allaa.... 15 -20 meres einai... xalia - kala... 8a perasoun... k 8a koita3oume k tin ygeia mas... 8a koita3oume k tous eautous mas... 8a xamogelasoume 3ana me tin elpida pws ola 8a anikoun sto parel8on...

...olo k kati menei...

...dakry aima kylise x8es... kylise gt se 8imi8ika... kylise gt se anazitisa
k i3era pws pote dn 8a se eixa 3ana... i3era pws paei... xa8ike pia oti eixame...
dakry kylise k to skoupisa na figei... mi meinei ixnos sto proswpo m...
etsi se skoupisa k esena ap tin kardia m... se skoupisa mi meinei ixnos apo sena...
Aima dn ypirxe sto proswpo... alla ipirxe mia 8li4i... k autin dn borousa na tin svisw...
K stin kardia m dn iparxoun ixni apo sena... alla mia mavrila, oso k na nai... iparxei...
ekei va8ia k apla dn borei kaneis na tin ka8arisei...

...I'm sorry for the way i am...

"What I really meant to say is I'm sorry for the way I am...I never meant to be so cold...", lene oi Crossfade....

I'm sorry for the way I am lew k egw se sena... 3ereis m einai diskolo na pw siggnwmi kotazontas se ta matia... einai toso diskolo gia enan anthrwpo p einai egwistis... k distixws eimai se kapoio vathmo... k dn einai mono o egwismos... skeftomai tin epomeni mera... to ti 8a ginei istera... k apla dn 8elw na to antikrisw... dn exw ti dinami na se koita3w k na s pw siggnwmi...

Einai diskolo na s pw poso lipamai gia to pws eimai... to 3erw pws a3izeis kati poly kalitero... kati p dn 8a einai opws egw... k 3erw pws eimai tixeri p se eixa/exw -opws to pei o ka8enas... Alla distixws se apoxairetw... gia alli mia fora... gt 3erw pws apla dn s a3izw...

K feugw makria... trexww mi deis ta dakrya m... trexw mi ftaseis na me pareis ap to xeri gt 8a ta 3exasw ola... trexw mi me prolaveis... olo trexw... k eutixws i distixws auton ton agwna dromou ton kerdizw... k dn me prolamvaineis... k feugw gia sena ws mia pagokolona xwris ais8imata... k kalitera na me 8imasai etsi... na me 8imasai me mia pikri geusi... gt etsi 8a me 3exaseis eukola...

Vevaia dn einai etsi... k distixws dn borw na sto pw... feugw gia to kalo s... gt 3erw egw kalitera apo sena pws dn eimai kati kalo gia sena... feugw gt prepei na figw k oxi gt 8elw... k einai megali i diafora... k stin arxi poname k oi dio... alla 8a anakoufistei o ponos kapote... k 8a pareis auto p a3izeis... to kalitero...

siggnwmi s lew edw p 3erw pws dn 8a to deis... alla einai enas tropos na epoulwsw k egw ti diki m pligi... 8a m peis to a3izw gt egw tin anoi3a... alla opws k na xei... eimai akomi zwntani k prp na tin epoulwsw kapws... siggnwmi p imoun toso psixri k toso krya... siggnwmi p imoun toso adiafori... siggnwmi p eimai etsi akomi... siggnwmi p se pligwsa... siggnwmi gia oti asximo se ekana na niwseis... alla 3ereis o troxos gyrizei... k mallon twra 8a r8ei k i diki m seira na viwsw auta ta psixra ais8imata...

Siggnwmi kale m koitazontas se sta matia se mia fotografia afou dn exw to kouragio na sto pw koitazontas se sta matia proswpo me proswpo...

simera niw8w pws dn borw na grapsw eleu8era... vevaia prospa8isa oso ginotan... alla niw8w pws dn borw... gt apla kapoio atomo p anaferw sixna sto blog m...to anakalipse... edw k 2 mines peripou dn to vrike kaneis ektos apo ta 3 atoma p to dwsa... k autos p itan o teleutaios p 8a 8ela na dei ti grafw edw... to vrike... ti na peis... apla apisteuto k sinama asteio...

Kleinw me tin euxi na mi m krata kakia to atomo p anaferw... na mi m krata kakia gia osa ekana k isws kanw a8ela m...

...αναπτήρας...

‘Άναψε μου ένα αναπτήρα να σε βλέπω..

Σαν κοιτάς το γέλιο σου να κλέβω

Άναψε μου ένα αναπτήρα πριν να σβήσω

Μες στο κόσμο να μπορώ να ξεχωρίσω..”

...ais8ima xaras egw???...

K epistrefw edw... se sena na s ebisteutw kati diaforetiko... dn einai ponos auti ti fora... oute arnitikes ske4eis...
3ereis tis teleutaies meres imoun arketa xaroumeni... toso xaroumeni p fovomoun na milisw se anthrwpous... fovomoun min kanw kati k xasw auti ti xara... gt 3ereis...perasan sxedon 3 mines apo tote p me episkeftike teleutaia fora... K apla gelousa... xamogelousa... k evgaine auti i eutixia apo mesa m... apo ti 4ixi k ti kardia m...

To para3eno einai pws dn 3erw gt... Isws einai epd pira mia geri dosi apo lypi, dystixia, apaisiodo3ia, adikia prosfata... k na katalava pws o kosmos einai gematos tetoia... k gi auto prp na dw me allo mati ti zwi... isws na nai gt akomi dn siniditopoiisa ti gnt edw... isws na nai gt apla erwteutika 3ana... oute egw dn 3erw gt... apla eimai xaroumeni... apla gelaw... apla apolamvanw enan kafe me filous... apla apolamvanw ti ka8e stigmi p pernw... akoma k tis 5 wres p moun vivlio8iki prox8es... tis apolausa k ekana oses trelles borouse na kanei kaneis mesa se mia vivlio8iki sxedon adeia...

Ta grafw auta k tremw... tremw mi ta grapsw k figei i xara apo mena... mi figei auti i euforia... ta grafw k anarwtiemai an prp na ta kanw publish mi me katarastei kaneis k epistrepsw sti distixia m 3ana...

Ok.. dn lew... dn dinw k polles meres stin aisiodo3ia m... alla na paei mexri tin deutera dn 8a tan kako... mexri tin triti isws... 3erw pws sintoma 8a gyrisw sta palia... se ena mouskemeno proswpo apo dakrya... se ena atomo gemato apaisiodo3ia, autokatastrofi k apelpisia...

Alla pros to parwn "apolamvanw ti xara m"... k to akomi pio para3eno einai pws k oi girw m apolamvanoun auti ti xara... gt isws dn me 3anadan xaroumeni edw... k to paratiroun... k me vlepoun k anarwtiountai ti exw pa8ei... isws na nai k auto p me fovizei perissotero... mi ma8oun ti exw....

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To niw8w... dn 3erw gt... alla to niw8w... niw8w apla ena keno... les k kapoios pire ta oneira m makria... K edw epestre4a gt eixa ena oneiro... k me piezan na r8w... k otan me eixe piasei 8li4i k dn imoun kala m legan na skeftomai auto... to skopo p eimai edw... pws 8a perasw dio xronia na parw ena ptyxio fisikou... K twra??? m les twra gia pio logo na zw??? m les poios 8a m dwsei ena logo edw na zw??? m les ti 8a skeftomai otan 8a me pianei auto to ais8ima k na 8elw na figw apo dw???

dn iparxei tpt pia... tpt p na me krata zwntani... alla to 3ereis oso to 3erw k egw pws dn borw na figw... dn exw ti dinami... k apla 8elw na figw... alla as me parei kapoios allos... as m kanei auti ti xari k na m afairesei ti zwi... borei????

K apla menw edw... na koitaw enan adeio toixo... oso k i psixi m... oso k i zwi m auti ti stigmi... na koitaw apla sto keno... na mi skeftomai tpt... k apla na min exw oneira pia... paei t' oneiro... xa8ike san ton ilio mia mounti mera stin agglia... xa8ike... opws k i zwi m... xa8ike... xa8ike... xa8ike...

K grafw askopa... isws k asinartisies... apla se mia prospa8eia m na iremisw... gt dn iparxoun alla dakrya pia na kla4w.... dn iparxoun alloi koboi na de8ei to stomaxi m... dn iparxoun alles eikones na 8olwsoun... Grafw bas k to dei kaneis k m kanei ti xari na me skotwsei... K sinama anarwtiemai??? na parw kna risko bas k figw ap auti ti zwi???

...I miss u...

Prp na paw na koimi8w... to 3erw... se ligo 8a 3imerwsei k gw eimai akoma edw... se mia o8oni... alla kamia fora a3izei...

Meta apo mia vdomada p imoun mesa se mia ane3igiti 8li4i, arnitikotita... meta apo mia vdomada p dn elegan ta dakrya na stere4oun... meta apo mia vdomada p apla anepnea k dn ekana kati allo... Isws ir8e k i stigmi ligis xaras...

K einai autes oi stigmes p an k akm niw8eis pws oi perissoteroi filoi s edw dn yparxoun sta ali8eia... 3ereis pws toulaxiston autes oi treis 4ixes p pe8imises toso einai edw... konta s - estw k apo makria- k se akoune... k apla k mono me mia kouventa ts se kanoun k niw8eis kalitera...

Xalia 3ekinise i mera... an k etoimastika na figw anakalipsa pws dn eixa ta kleidia m gia na vgw... ta xa kapou xasei mesa sto spiti k dn ta vriska pou8ena... etsi apofasisa tlk na meinw spiti... me plakwnan autoi oi 4 toixoi... i8ela na vgw e3w... na perpatisw... apla na xa8w gia ligo... makria apo gnwrima meri k proswpa... dn ta katafera omws... gi auto simvivastika me o,ti eixa... ena computer, ena kinito tilefwno, k ena msn me 200+ contacts...

girw stis 12 eixa vrei to group family sto msn m... ekei vrika tin kolliti m... k tis milisa... athina auti... guildford egw... itan 3ipnia... etoimazotan na vgei gia pswnia gia dinner p 8a kane apopse... tis milousa kna 2wro na vroume mazi ti fagita na kanei... ti ylika 8a prp na agoraze (leme twra pio ebeiri stin mageiriki egw - tromara m!)... sto diastima p tis milousa pira ena anapantexo tilefwnima... apo mia fili p einai sto Oxford... To para3eno me auto to koritsi einai pws me agapa k tin agapw poli... stin kypro sini8ws vriskomaste ka8imerina... k an oxi ka8imerina tlx 4 fores ti vdomada alla stin agglia dn vre8ikame oute mia fora mexri simera... Otan apantisa tin klisi tis m pe pws 8a pigaine gia ena agwna sto Aldershot k 8a allazan treno sto Guildford... k afou to ma8e twra... skeftike na r8ei na m gnwrisei k to agori tis k na me dei k mena ligo... Ekeini ti stigmi meta apo mia vdomada xamogelasa ap ti 4ixi m... gt tin pe8imisa... borei na mi milame ka8e mera... borei na min 3erw ana pasa stigmi ola tis ta nea... borei na kanw k 6 mines na ti dw alla dn meiwnetai ka8olou i agp p tis exw... k 3erw pws an exei ena provlima 8a me parei tilefwno, i an tis simvei kati omorfo pali 8a m to pei... Telospantwn to vradaki kata tis 7 m pe 8a er8ei edw sto spiti... K tin perimena me anipomonisia...

Mexri tis 7 vevaia... milousa me tin kolliti m sinexeia... eixame camera anoikti... k legame mlks... m deixne ta rouxa tis... m deixne ta fagita tis... pigaine panw katw... ts edeixna k egw diafora... k apla kaname parea i mia stin alli... oli mera... opws tote... tis kales palies epoxes p apla milousame me tis wres...

K kata tis 3 to prwi... otan imoun etoimi pia na koimi8w... ir8e 3ana k m milise... k m pe omorfa pragmata p apla eniwse tin anagki na m pei ekeini ti stigmi... k milousame milousame.... k dn legame na figoume...

K stis 4... ekane tin eisodo tou k o kollitos m... k to group family tou msn megalwne apo online contacts... 3 exei... ( ta 2 itan online)... k milisa k me auton... dn m pe euxarista pragmata... alla pali m milise... k m pe pws emena k akoma mia fili tou mas vazei panw ap ola... itan k auto to deutero megalo xamogelo tis imeras...

Dn adikw tin kolliti m apodidontas ta dio xamogela m stin alli fili k ston kollito... To koritsi auto... pernei to megalo vraveio... to vraveio autou p katafere na stamatisei to klama... to vraveio autou p dimiourgise mia xara mesa m oli ti mera... p dimiourgise ena ais8ima omorfo k ediw3e kapoies kakes ske4eis ap to mialo m... p k auta poly simantika einai... k isws telika na m prosfere k to trito xamogelo legontas m kati teleutaio... alla 3erw pws tis xarisa k egw ena xamogelo... p sximatistike me auta p tis egrapsa... gt dn eixa dinami na tis ta pw... k gt apla e3efrazan oti niw8w gia ekeini k gia tous allous 2 p anefera... alla perissotero gi auti, gt me autin pernw k ton perissotero m xrono stin kypro...

I miss you...
I miss the times we shared,
talking, laughing, having fun...
and even the times
when we did nothing at all...
I miss just knowing that u're there...

..."filoi"...

Dn antexw allo... apla dn antexw...

Dn 3erw gt ta ais8anomai ola auta autes tis meres... Dn 3erw gt parakalw apla na imoun moni m ston kosmo... na min eixa oute filous oute oikogeneia... dn 3erw gt... apla me pernei to parapono pou tous exw sti zwi m... k dn tous 8elw... dn 8elw kna... k apla dakryzw gt tous exw...

To 3erw... opoios to diavasei auto mallon trelli 8a me vgalei... paranoiki... alla dn eimai... 3erw ti ais8anomai... apla dn borw na to perigrapsw... 3erw ti niw8w... 3erw pws me pianei to parapono ap autous tous "filous"... dn 3erw gt eidika autes tis meres... alla niw8w pws autoi 8a einai k o logos tis apotyxias m... k anarwtiemai gt na tous exw afou me kanoun k apotigxanw? K anarwtiemai gt iparxoun sti zwi m??? pragmatika anarwtiemai... k autos p 8ewrousa nte k kala filo m edw... an pe8anw dn 8a to parei xampari... oute me anazita pia... autoi einai oi "filoi" ipo8etw... k opws 3anapa paliotera... m pernei xrono pleon na onomasw kapoion filo... isws twra na min onomazw kna pia FILO!...

K apla ola osa dn vgazw oli mera k ta kratw mesa m... erxomai vradi sto spiti k 3espw... se ena klama p mono egw akouw... ena klama p mono egw niw8w... einai tote p ponaei o laimos m gt dn borw na anapneusw pia... einai tote p niw8w apla na pnigomai... k omws tin epomeni to idio g..meno proswpeio forw... k to idio prospoiimeni eimai...

dn eimai egw pia... enas allos eautos m einai autos p zei ekei e3w... egw eimai edw... autos ekei e3w dn 3erw ti kanei... alla mallon dn einai oute autos eutixismenos...

"Asto klama na parei tin arnitiki aura... asto klama na se iremisei... " ma niw8w toso asxima akoma k meta apo toso klama...

...to triantafillo p maran8ike...

San simera eixes figei... m pan pws dn 8a soun pia sti zwi m... Isoun kapou poli makria... Ipe8esa pws exases ton agwna me ti zwi... To dextika tote... Ma m eleipes... K se anazitousa... alla kaneis dn m elege p 8a borousa na vrw kan ton tafo s k auto dn to dexomoun...

K etsi pira ena triantafillo k 3ekinisa to ta3idi m... Ta3idepsa se ola ta nekrotafeia p borousa na vrw sti xwra... k pernousa meronixta ekei mesa prospa8ontas na se vrw... To triantafillo eixe arxisei na marainetai... dn me enoiaze... egw sinexiza... M eleipes k auto eixe simasia... Oso to triantafillo marainotan i elpida m megalwne...

Piga se alles xwres, se alles politeies... k sinexisa na psaxnw gia sena... To triantafillo maran8ike gia ta kala pia... K tote... 3afnika... emfanistikes esi... Dn isoun opws tote p me afises... Isoun alliwtikos... Pires to triantafillo k to koita3es... " Mou moiazei twra pia..." m pes k me koita3es me eriwniko ifos... Eida to zarwmeno s proswpo para ta 25 s xronia... Ka8e provlima stigmatizotan me mia rytida sto proswpo s... k emoiaze auto twra me proswpo mesilika i k ilikiwmenou...

Eida ena vlemma p me ekane n'atarixiasw... ena vlemma p eixe ena stigma paraponou alla sinama zitouse apegnwsmena voi8eia... Tote ki egw katalava ti ennoousan otan m eipan pws efiges ap ti zwi m... Ta vala me autous... alla perissotero ta vala me ton eauto m gt tous pistepsa k gt se afisa... Perissotero me ton eauto m p afisa to triantafillo m na maran8ei...

...Do I walk alone...?

akousa ena tragoudi...

I walk alone elege... k me ekfrazei oso kna allo isws auti ti stigmi...

Einai enas dromos p egw diale3a... enas dromos monaxikos... enas dromos opou egw 8a e3artomai MONO k apokleistika mono apo ton eauto mou... enas dromos opou dn 8a prp na epireazw kna alla oute k na epireazomai... Fantazei omws toso diskolo... sxedon akator8wto...

K me to na lew monaxikos dromos dn ennow na min iparxoun atoma sti zwi s... na mi vgaineis e3w... na mi kaneis parees... apla na min iparxoun atoma sti zwi s me ta opoia na sindeesai tromera... me ta opoia na zeis ka8imerina k apla na min boreis na zeis xwris auta... K prospa8isa poly na katalavw pws boroun na diaxwristoun oi dio katigories anthrwpwn... K apla evala ton eauto m se mia ske4i... Gia poia atoma 8a edina akomi k ti zwi m gia na sw8oun? Gia poia atoma 8a etrexa ana pasa stigmi, o,ti ki an ekana, o,ti k an eixa gia na ta vrw an me xreiazontan (k 8a to kana oxi apo ypoxrewsi alla gt 8a dakryza me ton pono ts)?

Tote katalava... pws o dromos m dn einai monaxikos... gt skeftika polla atoma... gt skeftika atoma p isws na min pernousan ap to mialo m... gt skeftika tin oikogeneia m... skeftika ton mbamba p einai arrwstos k an figei dn 8a to ante3w... skeftika tous filous.... tin kolliti m p m pe pws ola tis pane kala alla dn niw8ei oloklirwmeni... dn niw8ei eutixismeni gt dn eimai egw ekei... skeftika kapoion p m edwse mia agkalia k ena fili k me kane na niwsw gia mia fora simantiki...

Skeftika kai 3anaskeftika k kateli3a pws o anthrwpos dn proorizetai na nai monaxiko on... K filous na min exeis, exeis oikogeneia... p se noiazetai k p tn skeftesai... k gia mena apolyti mona3ia einai auto p alloi borei na poun egwismos... na boreis na kratas elegxo tou eautou s xwris na epireazesai apo tous allous... gt oso k na to kanoume... ama agapas kapoia atoma ta provlimata ts ginontai k dika s... K auti i mona3ia... dn yparxei... Krima eipa stin arxi... alla istera skeftika poses fores xreiastika egw auta ta mi monaxika atoma sti zwi m... poses fores me piran ap to xeri k me eswsan prin pesw ston gkremo... poses fores mono k ena geia tous me ekane na ais8anomai kalitera... k etsi apofasisa pws oloi autoi oi nomoi p yparxoun sto siban... isws oxi fisikis... isws oxi grammenoi k tekmiriwmenoi episima... alla autoi oi nomoi gia ton anthrwpo k tis sinanastrofes t tlk na min einai toso tixaioi... k ola auta na ginontai gia ena skopo...

K isws tlk na perpatw ena dromo monaxi opws leei k i tarja... alla 3erw pws sto steno yparxei panta kapoios p ama xreiastw ti voithia tou 8a r8ei trexontas na me voithisei...

...Antio kale m...

To xa gia panta filakto... kati apo sena... na 8imizei esena... to xa pantote mazi m... dn efeuga pote ap to spiti xwris auto... itan o desmos m mazi s... Simera autos o desmos espase...

To vrika dialimeno... alli 8a to poune vlakeia... egw to lew simadi... simadi pws egw k esi teleiwsame... simadi pws ir8e pia episima i stigmi na proxwrisw... simadi pws esi eisai gia ta kala pia meros tou parel8ontos m k oxi tou parontos...

Otan katalava pws itan moirasmeno me epiase ena sfi3imo stin kardia... opws otan 8aveis kapoion diko s... alla istera eniwsa k mia agalliasi... opws otan kati se vasanizei k 3afnika vriskeis ti lisi k apeleu8erwnesai...

K etsi to pira sti xoufta m... k to 8apsa... mazi me auto k osa osa zisame... Oxi, oxi... oi anamniseis menoun... einai i pikra k o ponos p 8aftike... oti omorfo zisame exei meinei... apla twra einai opws akrivws to e8esa... anamniseis... omorfa pragmata p apla pros8etoun embeiries sti zwi s...

Antio kale m... Na sai eutixismenos... Twra pia episima k xwris emena

...sfragizontas tis ske4eis...

k etsi grafw... dixws logo dixws aitia... apla k mono gia na kleisw ti mera...
apla k mono gia na afisw oti omorfo egine... oti asximo egine... na to kleisw mesa se auto to post...
k apla na pw pame gi alla... apla gt 3erw pws opws arxizei mia mera... stin poreia allazei... i psixologia, to pws pane ta pragmata... tpt dn einai to idio... k apla apofasizeis pws etsi einai... i 8etikotita ginetai arnitikotita... k apodexesai tin pragmatikotita...

k opws k na xei, to vradi otan pia pesei to skotadi k iparxei auto to mounto klima... mia kata8liptiki atmosfaira plakwnei...
k i arnitikotita... olo k megalwnei... megalwnei...
k oi apogoiteuseis olo k pli8ainoun pli8ainoun...
k oi apotyxies fantazoun pia ka8imerinotita...
k oi antrwpoi p 3ediplwnoun ton pragmatiko ts eauto poia dn boroun na metri8oun sta daktyla s...

k i nixta oloena k megalwnei... megalwnei... k se muei se mia kata8liptiki koinwnia... mia koinwnia opou iparxeis esi k o eautos s...
vevaia iparxoun k alla polla atoma se autin alla apla dn ta 3ereis...
gt einai les k auti i koinwnia s prosferei maskes... k tis foras gia na mi se anagnwrizei kaneis...

k erxetai gia ta kala i nixta... opou kleinesai sto spiti s... sintrofia me ena computer, ligi mousiki, msn k skype... sintrofia me filous p vriskontai makria eite apla s milane mesw internet...
sintrofia me ti mona3ia s k tin arnitiki s energeia... kapoies ske4eis psycho... kapoies ske4eis trelles... alla sinama toso 4agmenes... p ligoi boroun na katalavoun

k etsi grafw... grafw gt apla etsi vriskw ton tropo autes tis ske4eis na tis kleisw kapou... na ts sfragisw... etsi wste i epomeni mera na einai alliwtiki...
i epomeni mera na 3imerwsei pio 8etiki... me ske4eis aples... sini8ismenes... san olwn twn sini8ismenwn anthrwpwn... mexri na r8ei pali to vradaki... k na 3anavgoun stin epifaneia oi dikes m ske4eis... gt egw eimai para3eni k oxi sini8ismeni...
etsi gia na min 3exastoume kiolas... na me stoixeiwsoun k pali oi dikes m ske4eis... alla k pali... sfragizontas tes ka8e nixta einai les k afinw kapoies arnitikes m ske4eis kapou...
auto to kapou einai aprosdioristo... alla einai estw ena kapou... k zw me tin elpida pws auto to kapou dn 8a einai stin epomeni m mera...

...mia oasi stin erimo...

K einai fores... p dn niw8eis tpt... p ola einai mavra... asxima... niw8eis pws ola teleiwnoun... anarwtiesai gt na zeis afou mia mera 8a pe8aneis... niw8eis pws apla xaneis ti zwi... gt ola osa pisteues mexri twra itan ena 4ema... k ola apla s fainontai ena anosto asteio... mia farsa einai i zwi tlk...
Ki apogoiteuesai ap tous anthrwpous sinexeia... isws tous apogoiteueis k esi... alla esi pote dn 8eleis to kako twn allwn... esi dn 8es oi alloi na min einai kaloi... k apla anarwtiesai pws dn katalaves ena xrono k kati tin diploproswpeia kapoiwn anthrwpwn... k to fthono p exoun gia sena... alla, to niw8eis pws dn ekle4es kati... oti pires to pires me tin a3ia s... alla auta ta atoma gt??? gt na einai etsi??? gt apla na 8eloun mono autoi na petixainoun??? gt na xairontai me tin apotyxia s... k apla na 3inizoun me tin epitixia s??? k oso skeftesai pws 6 proptyxiakoi kyprioi einai oloi k oloi se auti ti poli sti fisiki... k anti na ka8ontai oloi mazi na allilovoithountai... iparxei olo auto to misos k i zileia...

K mesa se oli auti tin apogoiteusi... p eisai ston pato... p niw8eis pws teleiwse poia k 8a pa4eis apo stigmi se stigmi na anapneeis... p niw8eis to o3igono s na meiwnetai dramatika... p niw8eis pws perpatas se mia erimo ateleiwti k apla se egkataleipoun oi dinameis s.... erxetai kati anapantexo... kati mikro alla k toso megalo... kati toso asimanto alla mazi k toso simantiko... mia oasi stin erimo s... k apla s fernei ena 3exasmeno xamogelo sta xeili... s 8imizei ta omorfa p xei auti i zwi... s 8imizei pws kapoia atoma akomi se agapoun pragmatika... k auti i agapi dn einai diproswpi... einai ali8ini... apo ta va8i tis kardias ts... Einai oi stigmes p apla xairesai p iparxei i texnologia... gt sto skype vriskeis ena missed call apo to vaftistiri s... k ena minima grammeno apo ti mama tou (gt apla dn 3erei na grafei gt mikro einai akomi - oute kan 4) "nona vlepw tis fotografies p me vaftises... se pe8imisa nona...s'agapw poly" k auta ta logia ta sinodeuoun grammata akatalavistika xwris noima... k emoticons... oti na nai... alla to pio simantiko... emoticons k grammata grammena apo ton idio... apo tin kardia tou...

Gt nai iparxei estw k ena atomo p me agapaei pragmatika... k t leipw... k oso mikro k na nai ais8anetai pws i nona tou einai makria alla tin agapei... k dn tin 3exna... k auto EINAI OMORFO... k einai kati monadiko... gt einai ena atomo p me anazita sto skype... k prospa8ei na dei ekei tin photografia m gia na katalavei pws einai ekei i nona gia na tis grapsei grammata.. gia na tin parei tilefwno k na tin dei stin camera... k na ka8isei monos tou xwris kna allo giro k na tis milisei... gia to sxoleiou tou, gia tous filous t, na tis tragoudisei... gt apla 3erei... pws iparxei auto to special connection meta3i mas...

K kapws etsi kleinei k simera mia akomi mera... p arxise kapws ado3a... p pige kapws strava stin poreia... k p teleiwse me kati poly omorfo...

...filakismeni edw...

Mia eikona xilies le3eis dn lene??? kati tetoio prospa8w na kanw k egw... gt etsi ais8anomai... alla apla dn borw na to grapsw... ta logia apla dn vgainoun...

Ais8anomai filakismeni... ston idio m ton eauto... alla k se ola osa exw na kanw... ais8anomai filakismeni se mia zwi p dn 8elw... ais8anomai filakismeni... ais8anomai filakismeni... ais8anomai filakismeni... ais8anomai pagideumeni... pagideumeni... pagideumeni...

K einai k auto to vlemma 3ereis... auto to 8limmeno vlemma p dn feugei me tpt...dn feugei me tpt... dn feugei me tpt...

k opws ta epanalamvanw auta ta logia... einai les k akomi i idia i ixo tis fwnis m einai pagideumeni... k akougetai 3ana k 3ana stn kosmo p egw zw... gt apla dn borei na drapeteusei... oute k auti... na vgei e3w k na akoustei... para menei edw... apla na me stoixeiwnei...

Pisw stin arnitikotita mas... gia na mn 3exniomaste...

k ekei p niw8eis oti ola pane kala... k niw8eis pws exei bei i zwi s se ena rithmo... pws exeis vrei tin eleu8eria s k pali... pws apla apofasises na adiaforeis gia ola osa se xalane k apla na kaneis MONO oti s' aresei... kati erxetai k se xalaei....

S allazei oli i dia8esi... apla meneis 3aplwmenos sto krevati na vlepeis to tavani k na pernoun xilia drio pragmata ap to mialo s... poia einai auta? oute k si i idia dn 3ereis... exeis ble3ei toso ti zwi s... p oute k oi ske4eis s pia dn einai 3eka8ares...

K 3ereis omws... pws mesa se autes einai i mona3ia s... p kapote tin 8eleis alla iparxoun k stigmes p anazitas ts filous... k merikes fores enw niw8eis perikiklwmeni apo atoma apla dn niw8eis pws eisai konta se auta... k anazitas tous FILOUS... k vlepeis ts anthrwpous para3ena pia... gt dn 3ereis poious boreis na onomaseis etsi... poious boreis na 8ewreis FILOUS...

Ki einai k oi ske4eis p niw8eis pws exases oli tin a8wotita k tin kalosini... pws mazi me ta xionia... eliwsan k auta k xa8ikan... les k dn ipir3an pote... K anarwtiesai ti paei la8os mazi s... Gt vgazeis toso egwismo? Gt alla3es toso??? ki omws to 3ereis pws ta noiazesai ta alla atoma... ta skeftesai sinexeia... ta vlepeis ston ypno s... alla apla dn vriskeis ton tropo na ts to dei3eis... k einai k ta atoma gia ta opoia dn noiazesai... alla k pali dn ais8anesai misos gi auta... apla ligo na se pnigoun... k dn 8es k polla polla mazi ts... alla anti apla na apomakrinesai... niw8eis pws vgazeis mia aperanti kakia pros auta...

Kai einai k kapoies katastaseis p dn 3ereis pws na tis xiristeis... k apla meneis apragi... na kopanas to kefali s... gt apla dn 3ereis ti na kaneis, ti na peis, ti na grapseis...

Kai einai k i kolliti s... p tin pe8imises... alla dn tis to les... k se niw8ei makria... k agorases mia karta na tis steileis... etsi xwris logo... xwris aitia apla gia na tis peis pws tin agapas k tin exeis pe8imisei... alla meneis ekei na kratas to stylo na tin vlepeis... k apla oi le3eis na min vgainoun... enw ais8anesai tosa polla...

Kai einai k to agxos... ena agxos p dn 3ereis pws na polemiseis... ena agxos p dn 3ereis apo pou pigazei... ena agxos p apla se katatrwei siga siga...

Kai einai k oi goneis p simera ts milises apotoma... k eides ena vlemma 8limmeno sto proswpo ts... k ena tono sti fwni ts alliwtiko... gt apla dn isoun kala... k 3ereis pws autoi dn eftai3an se tpt... kanoun ta panta gia sena... k esi apla dn boreis na sigkratiseis ligo ta nevra s...

Kai einai k oi ske4eis oi palies p erxontai sto mialo s... ske4eis p alloi 8ewroun ili8ies k les k esi pws isws itan... alla to 3ereis pws va8ia mesa s tis pisteueis akoma... k katalamvaineis pws dn arkoun 2 logia k ena "agapw ti zwi" gia na diw3eis auti tin mavrilla sti 4ixi... oute na vreis to noima tis zwis... oute na boreis na xamogelas mesa ap tin kardia s...

Kai einai tosa alla... p apla dn apari8mountai... k alla tosa p apla dn boroun na graftoun...

Ki ola auta... apla se xalane... k apla anti na kratiseis ti 8etikotita tou teleutaiou post... epanerxomaste stin arnitikotita p diakatexei genikws auto to blog... Mi 3exniomaste... dn grafoume k kna parami8i me euxaristo telos... enas ekptwtos aggelos einai o siggrafeas... ti na perimenoume dld?

k apla proxwraw aka8ekta, anapneontas k aporrofontas oli tin arnitiki energeia p iparxei... k auti i energeia ginetai ergo p spaei ta ftera autou t aggelou... k apla peftw 3ana...

...ske4eis...

Mia volta perieixe i mera m simera...Mia volta sto londino... mia ap tis agapimenes poleis... mia megaloupoli... mia poli p xanesai k omws egw ti latrevw...
K omws me epiase pali auto to sfi3imo sti kardia... auto to sfi3imo p dn borousa na prosdiorisw... p me etrwge gia 1002 pragmata... Perasa apo to imperial k eida ta matia m na ginontai ygra... ygra gt to panepistimio twn oneirwn m gia ta kala ekane ftera... ygra gt dn pistepse kaneis se mena p na me afisei na dokimasw k gw na ginw melos se auto to panepistimio...
K istera perpatousame stous dromous tou londinou... dromoi me agnwstous... dromoi me fwta k autokinita... me zwi... k eixe nixtwsei k eperne mia mageia apisteuti auti i poli...
k apla ekana ena siwpilo dialogo me ton allo m eauto... k apla tou fwnaza gt dn eixa paei londino gia spoudes... k t fwnaza t fwnaza... mexri p ton pligwsa... k to katalava gt swpase... to katalava gt pia dn afine auto to sfi3imo stin kardia na me ftasei... to katalava gt anazitisa to spiti m... k to xwrio mas... k atoma p dn itan mazi m... tote katalava pws o allos m eautos einai autos p fernei isorropia sti zwi m... k ekei p pas na peseis se anevazei... dexetai tis fwnes s, tin kritiki s... alla s fernei sto mialo ola auta ta mikra p exeis sti zwi k kamia fora ta 3exnas k ta parakampteis...

K etsi epestrepsa sto xwrioudaki m... me ena xamogelo zwgrafismeno se ena mexri tote sinnefiasmeno proswpo... me ena proswpo p xamogelouse k gelouse me tis amfieseis ton 3enwn gia to halloween... me ena proswpo p vadize me sigouria stous isixous se sigkrisi me to londino dromous tou guildford... me ena proswpo p xamogelase me noima ka8ws eide tin gefira... to potamaki k skeftike tin isixia p s prosferei enas peripatos ekei... gt sto londino... pu8ena dn 8a sai monos s dipla se ena potami i mia limni!

17/12/07

einai autes oi nixtes... p ka8esai monaxi sto dwmatio s k oi wres, ta lepta, ta deuterolepta dn pernoun... einai autes oi nixtes
pou eisai teleiws moni... oloi exoun figei... apomeines esi k i mona3ia sou... k tote pairnoun fwtia ta playlists me a8anata ellinika
rock tragoudia... ta tragoudia p se pernoun pisw stin kypro... ekei p parakalas na vriskosoun twra... sto idio meros... ekei... me tous
sinitheis ipoptous... na pineis biritsa, na apolamvaneis mousiki k na gelas... propantwn na gelas... gt twra dn sximatizetai to xamogelo
sto proswpo sou... oxi... dn to vlepw... k parakalas toso na isoun mazi tou ekei... to 3ereis... einai ekei autos... ki esi oxi!!!
Autos pinei pagwmeni bira, akouei poiotiki rock mousiki, gela me ta filarakia, apolamvanei ti ka8e stigmi... an se evlepe 8a se xairetouse...
an dn se dei omws dn 8a tou leipseis k to 3ereis... agnoei tin ipar3i s isws... isws k na mi se anagnwrisei... tpt dn einai sigouro...

To perneis apofasi... Trypes exei to playlist... EDW! auto 8a kaneis...

...Xionizei....

Xionise... Xionizei... dn 3erw k gw ti sto diaolo simvainei...
K eimai k arrwsti... tremw ap to kryo... ki omws xionizei...

K me pianei auti i melagxolia... melagxolia gia ta panta p m fernei sto mialo to xioni...
Melagxolia gt dn exw para8iro na to koitw me tis wres... Melagxolia gt dn einai pia mazi m na to koitame mazi opws kaname allote... Melagxolia gia osa m simvainoun...

Ki omws sinexizei na xionizei... k to xiononero gnt twra pia xioni... nifades... p fantazoun omorfes katw ap to fws tis lambas t dromou... fantazei omorfo to xioni panw sta autokinita... ma stin kardia m xionizei 8li4i... k dn afinw auto to leuko xrwma na tin kanei na lam4i gia mia fora... k apla xionizei k stin karida m... ma ena xioni katamavro... p dn vlepei ton ilio gia na liwsei...

...Forever Autumn...

K apla m steile enas filos auto to tragoudi... k to 8imi8ika meta apo kairo... ki omws... ka8e fora p to akouw vourkwnw... FOREVER AUTUMN...

So the season of the fall begins
Down the crossroads in a sleepy little inn
By the fire when the sun goes down

But the night becomes you
And the secrets of the rain

Forever autumn

And the season of the fall begins
Out the nightlands when the thunderstorm sets in
The secrets clear in the cloudy night

But the night becomes you
And the secrets of the rain they will stay the same
And the time will come soon
With the secrets of the rain and the storm again

Coming closer every day, forever autumn

And the season of the fall begins
Past the pass nobell past willow is weeping
A ripple forms on the brinks of time

But the night becomes you
And the secrets of the rain, they will stay the same
And the time will come soon
With the secrets of the rain and the storm again

Coming closer every day forever autumn

Sta tsakidia oi erwtes! M' akous??

Sta tsakidia.... m' akous...??? oles tis katares a3izeis na s valoun alla apla einai anousio na asxoloumai pia mazi s....na spatalw to salio m gia sena... Alla ti na perimene kaneis...??? ili8ia vsk egw eimai p pistepsa estw k mia fora oti 8a borouse na ginei kati meta3i mas... ili8ia eimai k egw vsk p pistepsa se mia filia aniparkti... alla na s pw... STO DIAOLO... dn me endiafereis pia... apla me endiaferei gt piges na m xalaseis ti vradia... alla k auto dn to kataferes... dn eimai toso ili8ia gia na se afisw na to kaneis... nai! eimai ili8ia gt se afisa na eisvaleis sti zwi mou alla oxi dn eimai TOSO ili8ia p na se afisw na tin katastrepseis...

K i eirwnia einai pws simera milousa gia mona3ia... k gia sxeseis... k elega pws m aresei i mona3ia m... gt estw k gia mia stigmi i8ela na figw apo autin??? afou m aresei re gmt... 8elw na exw ton apolyto elegxo twn sinais8imatikwn m katastasewn... kna na m prokalei pono opote goustarei... Gt tote ton anazitisa auton ton erwta??? eleos pleon mazi mou...

K na mai meta apo mia diskoli nixta... p enw 3ekinise me xara kateli3e se mia mlk... k to xw re gmt auto to proais8ima panta... ama eimai xaroumeni 8a katali3w lipimeni k ama eimai lipimeni kati 8a paei kala k 8a me ftia3ei... k to xa k to lega alla oloi m legan pws eimai grousouza k 8a to xalousa... sta tsakidia!!! k egw k oi ske4eis m, ta proais8imata m... K o ka8e mlks p xei piei ton vosporo na erxetai k na kollaei san vdella... na se filaei, na se agkaliazei k apla na min boreis na 3efigeis.... trexaaa... dn exei pleon sotiria... dn exei s lew...

K na mai stis 5 to prwi na ka8omai brosta ston ka8refti k na m lew:
"Nai eisai ili8ia! ma pio poli ili8ia eisai gt pistepses gia mia fora ston eauto s... mia xara dn isoun sti xamili autopepoi8isi s??? twra ti se epiase??? pws boreses na to kaneis auto??? ena skoupidi eisai... ena skoupidi p apla dn a3izei tpt... Alla estw k se auto to skoupidi vre8ike kati polytimo... mia krimmeni a3ioprepeia... p oxi apla dn edei3es pws se peira3an ta osa eginan apo4e alla sta8ikes k sto y4os s.. k edei3es pws apla dn simvainei tpt... k pernas kala estw k an mesa s i 4ixi s mavrise... Sigxaritiria loipon gi auti tin erminia... k koita na min 3anakaneis to idio la8os... Malakes ston kosmo polloi... dn einai anagki na ginomaste o magnitis autwn..."

K istera paw gia ypno... me omws akoma to ais8ima autou tou kenou mesa m... Enos kenou apo mia filia p me prodose... apo enan erwta p ton patise to treno...

...London...

Ki an arxisw twra na grafw... dn 8a xei teleiwmo me ola auta p exw mesa mou... alla vlepeis dn borw na grapsw k polla... dn borw na ekfrastw pia... k exw k ena report na kamw... k ka8olou xrono gia xasimo... alla kourastika na grafw 8ewries, e3iswseis, na sxediazw grafikes k na kanw analyseis apotelesmatwn... kourastika k eipa na episkeftw to monaxiko m meros... to meros opou anoigw tin kardia m...

Prox8es eixa paei londino... k me to p ef8ane to treno stin megaloupoli... to niw8a mesa m na allazei i psixologia m... an k spirtokouta onomazoun tis polykatoikies... ta megala ktiria twn megaloupolewn... an k apo3enwmena ta panta... me mageuoun... k niw8w diaforetika otan eimai konta se auta... niw8w mikri k asimanti k auto me voitha na katalavw k na siniditopoiisw tin pragmatikotita m... K xamogelousa me to "secret smile" m opws to lene... p apla dn borw na to kripsw... k apla gia 4 wres periplaniomoun sts dromous t londinou... dn pira tilefwno kna gnwsto... i8ela na meinw egw, o eautos m k tosoi agnwstoi p periferontan sts gematous dromous... paratirousa tous anthrwpous... xaroumenous, ski8rwpous, alloi na trexoun stis douleies tous k alloi apla na kanoun volta... alloi na pswnizoun, alloi na diavazoun alla na perimenoun kapoion me anipomonisia... alloi na xamogeloun k alloi na fwnazoun... k einai toso diaforetikoi oi anthrwpoi alla sigxronws k toso idioi... k apla ts evlepa... evlepa atoma agnwsta se mena alla p kati 8imizan apo mena...

Pira to dromo gia tin epistrofi... 3ana sto treno... na feugw apo ti megaloupoli me proorismo to xwrio mas 3ana...k eixe kalo kairo... me liga nefelwmata edw k ekei... p dn itan gia vroxi... auta p otan imastan mikres 3aplwname stin auli k ta paratirousame me tin aderfi m k ti 3aderfi m k pla8ame me to mialo mas sxedia... vlepame ta sinnefa na einai se sxima skylwn, gatiwn, paidiwn p epaizan, paixnidiwn, prigkipisswn k vasiliadwn... k itan toso a8wa k omorfa auta p pla8ame tote... k ka8ws ta evlepa katalava pws ta xaroumena xronia, ta a8wa k anemela xronia me egkatelei4an edw k kairo... twra pia dn evlepa zwakia, xaroumena anthrwpakia... twra evlepa eikones para3enes... paidia me kommena podia k xeria... proswpa xwris matia... mia kardia p aimoragouse... dakrya... ena feretro, tafous k stavrous... k dn einai ta sinnefa p alla3an... eimai egw...
Isws an to diavasei kaneis auto na pistepsei pws eimai 4ixopa8is... isws na fovi8ei kiolas gt dn einai fisiologiko na pla8eis sto mialo s ola auta k na ta vlepeis ston ourano na sximatizontai apo sinnefa... alla dn me noiazei... egw apla ir8a gia akomi mia fora antimetwpi me tin pragmatikotita mou... p einai kapws skliri... alla k pali dn me noiazei...

Gia mena itan kati sini8ismeno... k apla sinexisa na akouw ta tragoudia m apo to mp3 player m... k na zw se enan diko m kosmo... se auton p dn afinw kna na eisvalei... se auton ton kosmo p zw moni egw k oi para3enes ske4eis m...

BELIEVE - STAIND

I sit alone and watch the clock
Trying to collect my thoughts
All I think about is you
And so I cry myself to sleep
And hope the devil I don't meet
In the dreams that I live trough

Believe in me
I know you've waited for so long
Believe in me
Sometimes the weak become the strong
Believe in me
this life is not always what it seems
Believe in me
Cause I was made for chasing dreams

All the smiles you had to fake
And all the shit you had to take
Just to lead us here again
I never have the things to say
To make it all just go away
To make it all just disappear

Believe in me
I know you've waited for so long
Believe in me
Sometimes the weak become the strong
Believe in me
this life is not always what it seems
Believe in me
Cause I was made for chasing dreams

Its my life
Its my choice
Hear my words
Hear my voice
And just believe

I sit alone and watch the clock
Trying to collect my thoughts
And all I think about is you

If you Believe in me
life is not always what it seems
Believe in me
Cause I was made for chasing dreams

Believe in me
I know you've waited for so long
Believe in me
Sometimes the weak become the strong
Believe in me
This life is not always what it seems
Believe in me
Cause I was made for chasing dreams


{{Allo ena live show p 8a xasw :( }}

ske4eis sto idio skiniko

Grafw k pali... etsi... xwris logo... gt apla to 'xa anagki...
Yparxei akoma auto to keno... ena keno p dn 3erw pws na kali4w...
K olo anisixw... anisixw gia mena... k tote erxontai sto mialo m oi stixoi
"I'm not afraid of tomorrow...I'm only scared of myself"
k rwtaw gt... alla kaneis k tpt dn dinei apantisi...

Eimai moni... k moni 8a meinw... moni dixws na me noiazetai kaneis...
xmmm oxi isws kapoioi na me noiazontai... opws px i kolliti m simera...
Gia alli mia fora katalava pws dn einai tixaio p tin lew aderfi m...

Amesws molis eide tis photos ap to party me rwtise ti exw...
k katalave amesws pws kati me apasxolouse x8es to vradi...
xwris na m milisei... xwris na tis pw tpt... apla k mono apo to na dei to vlemma m...
k arxisame autes tis kouventes... p mas pianei 2-3 fores to xrono k tis leme... k mas pernoun ta zoumia... k kataligoume apla mesa sto klama na gelame k na leme poso agapame i mia tin alli...
k tin agapw pragmatika estw k an polles fores tin 4ilostenaxorw...

x8es dn 3erw ti eixa... apla 3ipnisa anapoda... dn kataferna na sikwstw ap to krevati... k lipo8imisa mia fora... 3aplwsa 3ana... k istera anagkasa ton eauto m na sikwstei gt eprepe na katevw poli na agorasw ena dwro... dn ante3a gia poli k epestrepsa sto spiti... imoun moni k fovomoun... gt to 3anapa8a stin a8ina... na lipo8imisw k na min exw kna dipla m k kei xtypisa...
k istera...

otan pia etoimastika... pigame sto party kapoiou apo tous ligous filous p exw edw... k itan oli i parea mazemeni ekei... ekei na m fernei anamniseis apo persi... apo ta wraia p pernousame oloi mazi... k ekei itan to teliwtiko xtypima... gt me 2-3 potakia parapanw... ta ferna k ta 3anaferna sto mialo m ola... k apla dn borousa na afisw ton eauto m eleu8ero na apolausei ti stigmi... vevaia kaka dn borw na pw pws perasame... kaloutsika itan...

k na mai simera pali edw... idio grafeio... idia vivlia... idies mlks... na anarwtiemai gt iparxw, ti kanw k gt to kanw... na anarwtiemai ti einai swsto k ti la8os... na anarwtiemai gia ta pio asimanta pragmata... k apla n min vriskw apantiseis...

auta gia apo4e... ta gra4a na figoun apo panw m... na kanw ena dialeima k na sinexisw sto idio skiniko to 8eatraki m...

kalinixta

Human - The Killers

I did my best to notice
When the call came down the line
Up to the platform of surrender
I was brought but I was kind
And sometimes I get nervous
When I see an open door
Close your eyes
Clear your heart...
Cut the cord

Are we human?
Or are we dancer?
My sign is vital
My hands are cold
And I'm on my knees
Looking for the answer
Are we human?
Or are we dancer?

Pay my respects to grace and virtue
Send my condolences to good
Give my regards to soul and romance,
They always did the best they could
And so long to devotion
You taught me everything I know
Wave goodbye
Wish me well..
You've got to let me go

Are we human?
Or are we dancer?
My sign is vital
My hands are cold
And I'm on my knees
Looking for the answers
Are we human?
Or are we dancer?

Will your system be alright
When you dream of home tonight?
There is no message we're receiving
Let me know is your heart still beating

Are we human?
Or are we dancer?
My sign is vital
My hands are cold
And I'm on my knees
Looking for the answers

You got to let me know

Are we human?
Or are we dancer?
My sign is vital
My hands are cold
And I'm on my knees
Looking for the answers
Are we human
Or are we dancer?

Dn 3erw gt... m arese... me ekane na skeftw...
Asxeto me to tragoudi alla gia alli mia fora petixe to skopo t... m pe to radiofwno... ti sixnotita k dn borw na 3ekollisw apo auti... alla paizei sinexws ta tragoudia mas... k tragoudia p aresoun k sts dio... k apla dn borw na ton vgalw ap to mialo m otan ta akouw... isws gi auto na r8e na m to pe sto 3ekarfwto... isws na me skeftotan k keinos... alla mba... dn to nomizw... mallon m to pe epd apla k mono i3ere pws egw 8a ton eferna sinexws sto mialo m k katalamvaine pws teleutaia me exane oristika...

to 3era... mia mera oi dinameis m 8a me egkateleipan... poso kairo na ipoferw??? poso kairo na zw mesa sto 4ema??? stis autapates... k na p ir8e i stigmi... i pio akatallili stigmi gia na me egkatalei4oun... k na 8olwsei to mialo... na 8olwsoun ta panta... k apla na mi 3erw ti kanw... ti lew... p paw... ti na nai to epomeno m vima...

Dn 3erw tpt pia... dn 3erw gt eimai edw... dn 3erw gt kanw auto p kanw... dn 3erw tpt.... eimai mia agnwsti akoma k ston eauto m... K 8elw na figw... na figw twra... na figw gi allou... k omws dn exw ti dinami 3ana... k allwste... k na figw einai k alla tosa atoma p 8a dakrysoun k dn eftai3an se tpt... einai k oi goneis... p apla 8a figoun k autoi mazi m an figw...

dn 3erw ti allo pia na kanw... grafw... k ygrainw to keyboard ap ta dakrya m p pleon dn boroun na sigkrati8oun... k prospa8w na kratisw ta podia m or8ia gt apla lygizoun... k apla ipomenw... ipomenw grafontas bas k m perasei auto to plakwma stin kardia... bas k stere4oun ta dakrya alla dn to vlepw... mallon enteinw tin katastasi... gi auto stamatw...

k o,ti einai na ginei as ginei... apla dn exw alli dinami gia na pale4w gia tpt pia... oute kan gia to oneiro m...

13 -14/10/08

13/10/08

I ali8eia einai pws ir8a spiti gia na faw kati proxeiro, na parw kapoia vivlia k na figw...
Omws dn exw ore3i k dinami na paw 3ana sto uni... dn exw ore3i na parakalesw kna gia programmata k leitourgika systimata...
k niw8w orfani... isws, kalitera, san mana p xase to paidi tis... san kapoion p exase ton agapimeno tis...
niw8w ena keno mesa mou... ena terastio keno p dn borei na kalyf8ei... To pc m apla dn anoigei pia... Niw8w nekri... Alla k pali, oso mavri k na nai i 4ixi m, forisa pali ekeino to proswpeio tou anemelou koritsiou p ola t pane 8aumasia k parousiastika brosta se olous... ki ola pane "E3AISIA"...

Ti ki an i 4ixi m eklaige? Ti ki an sparaze mesa m? Ola itan 8aumasia pisw apo ti maska p forousa... K to ri3a sto gelio... e3w na gelw k mesa m na klaiw... san kati trelous p dn ts exei apomeinei tpt allo apo to na geloun... me auto to para3eno gelio p an to akouseis prosektika akous tis sixnotites tis 8li4is p kalyptontai apo autes tis xaras...

K to pairnw apofasi k apla perimenw... Twra dn perimenw to 8anato... Autos prospa8ei na me vasanisei k dn erxetai akomi... Twra perimenw na dw ti allo 8a m simvei... Ti allo 8a tara3ei ti zwi m (k fisika oxi euxarista) ...



SIMERA!
Kai na p taraxtike i zwi m 3ana...
borei na perasa x8es olo to vradi... na emeina aypni k na xreiastika 3 kafedes simera gia na epikoinwnisw alla to pc m to eftia3a... k malista dn exasa k ta perissotera arxeia m... ok auto itan to 8etiko... alla na m mene i xara???

To lab simera dn m vgike... itan apla ena pointless lab p anairouse ti 8ewria tou xaous... k imouna sxedon 4.30 + sto lab... dn 3erw ola m pane strava 3ana simera...
to mono 8etiko itan oti pira kati p me xaropoiise k oti meta apo kairo piga gia kafe me ena filo... k m lei4e gmt p persi imoun ka8imerina mazi t k fetos xa8ikame ligaki...

1000 berdemena nimata i 4ixi

dn 3erw gt dn exw grapsei oute kan se xarti edw k 2 meres... apla dn exw parei ekeino to boost gia na me kanei na parw to molyvi k to xarti k na mi stamatw.
den 3erw gt... einai tosa polla p simvainoun... toso berdemena... omorfa, asxima, asimanta, simantika... ki omws egw exw ena keno sinais8imatwn...

kamia fora m rxountai dakrya sta matia k otan stamatane na trexoun rwtw ton eauto m gt emfanistikan e3 arxis... alla k autos menei siwpilos...dn 3erei ti na apantisei... einai k alles fores p niw8w auto to sfi3imo stin kardia k 8elw na kla4w gia na figei... alla dn borw... k rwtw 3ana ton eauto m gt... alla k pali menei siwpilos...

K kataligw pws etsi exei i zwi... apla simvainoun polla, apla kratas polla mesa s, apla kapoies fores 3espas k kapoies oxi...

Dn exw ma8ei na dexomai to "gt etsi simvainei" ws apantisi omws... M aresei na vriskw ti riza t... Einai k to antikeimeno m allwste tetoio... Dn einai arketo to "giati etsi!" k gia auto pali menw me to keno mesa m... gt to etsi einai i zwi dn to dexomai egw... isws gi auto na eimai k distixismeni... gt zitw apantiseis k logiki e3igisi sta panta... iparxei omws sta panta??? k an dn iparxei gt simvainei auto???

niw8w na nai i 4ixi m 1000 nimata blegmena... k na prospa8w na ta 3eble3w... alla prospa8wntas na vrw mia akri ta blekw perissotero...

k apo4e logika prp na paw... na figw apo dw...na paw sts filous m... isws na nai k autos ekei... alla 8a meinw spiti... me moni parea ti mona3ia m k to keno... gt apla dn eimai sto mood... k ante na to e3igiseis stous allous... pali dn 8a katalavoun... pali 8a se poun para3eni... pali... pali... pali... me agapane... to 3erw... dn 8eloun na me afisoun moni... alla eimai para3eni... k mesa se oles tis para3enies m einai k auti... kapoies fores na 8elw apla na meinw moni... moni estw k an kapou allou iparxei kati kalytero... moni estw k an epd apousiasa apo kapou na xasw mia megali eukairia... alla k pali dn metaniwnw pote gt emeina spiti moni... pote... gt apla psaxnw (k tis perissoteres fores vriskw) tin iremia tis psixis m... k isws kapoia apo auta ta nimata tis 4ixis m na 3eblextoune tlk...

Xronia Polla se ena agapimeno proswpo...

Plisiazei i 8i octovriou... auti i mera einai simantiki... gia mena k gia autin... san auti ti mera genni8ike prin tosa xronia... an dn ipirxe isws na min imouna edw... isws na imoun se auti ti zwi alla sgr dn 8a moun edw k dn 8a eixa idia apo4i gia kapoia prmt...

dn 3erw gt pia dn milame oso palia... dn 3erw gt sto teleutaio m minima dn apantise...
isws na xe k auti ta dika ts... isws na tn peira3e p gia 2 mines p imouna stin kypro dn tn pira oute ena tilefwno...
ma to 8ela k malista poli... apla dn i8ela na enoxlisw... dn i8ela gt i3era pws imouna asimanti brosta sta provlimata...
k ti skeftomouna ka8imerina... opou k na pigaina oti k na kana... oloi tin i3eran k ti 3eroun...
einai ena ap ta simantikotera atoma sti zwi m... tn exw san deuteri mana...

dn 3exnw ta dakrya tis otan me apoxairetouse...
oute k otan stin prospa8eia ts na ma8ei gt imoun fyto gia 1 vdomada tis eipa pws ekana apopeira autoktonias, k stamatise to autokinito apotoma me kindino na prokalesei atixima k eklaige eklaige me anafilita
oute k otan me pire san paidi ts sto spiti tis otan egw dn i8ela na dw kna gnwsto m atomo k apla gyrnaga sts dromous...

ola auta dn ta 3exnw... einai mesa stin kardia m... k akoma exw minimata tis sto kinito m...
k akoma exw tin omilia p ekana sto sxoleio gia tin imera ekpaideutikou... k xwris na einai auti parousa tin epla8a brosta m k tin evlepa sta matia gia na borw na ekfrasw ola osa eniw8a gia autin brosta se tosous ma8ites k ka8igites...
k itan i prwti fora p gemisan sta matia m... me dakrya sigkinisis... k autoi to katalavan... k m legan pws eimaste tixeres p exoume i mia tin alli...

Plisiazei i mera twn gene8liwn s... k 8elw toso poly na s milisw... na se parw k na s pw pws se skeftomai akoma... pws se agapw poly... pws m leipeis...
dn 3erw an 8a to kanw... 3ereis fovamai mi m peis pws se pligwsa... dn 8a to ante3w... ena atomo p agapisa k latrepsa... ena atomo p m edwse tosi dinami k antlise dinami apo mena na m pei pws auta dn iparxoun pia...
fovamai mi se xasw oristika... tlx etsi... 3erw pws eimaste kapws xamenes... alla estw k mia fora to xrono 8a milisoume... einai k auto kati...
Na peraseis mia iperoxi mera k elpizw i zwi s pia na einai omorfi... na ti xairesai k na ti zeis opws m eleges na xairomai k na zw egw ti diki m...
Na eisai konta se atoma p se agapoun k se sevontai... k na min afineis kna na se pligwnei... gt apla a3izeis ta kalitera :)
K osa xronia ki an ziseis na sai dinati k ygiis... gia na boreis na dineis auti ti lam4i s k stous epomenous ma8ites s...
k sta paidia sou... k se mena p to xw anagki...
Se latrevw agapimeni m ka8igitria p isoun gia mena kati poly perissotero apo auto... Ki an pote se peira3e kati p ekana siggnwmi... dn itan pote pro8esi m...

... ka8ilwmeni sto krevati 2.5 meres...

einai sxedon 10... alla egw niw8w pws einai perasmena mesanixta... dn pernaei i wra
apo4e p tin 8elw na perasei... na figei... gia na er8ei i kainouria mera... mia mera p 8a vgw ap to spiti...
2.5 meres kleisti sto spiti me gripi, pyreto, ponokefalo, ponokoilo, vixa ktl... itan arketi gia na m spasei ta nevra
k na me pianei k ena agxos agrio gia to an 8a prolavw na kanw to lab i oxi...
k na me pianei k ena agxos k mia trela gt to dwmatio exei ginei pleon ena xali k dn antexw na to vlepw

dn antexw na menw kleisti se ena dwmatio xwris para8ira... me moni sintrofia to computer...
wraio to internet, wraio to msn, to skype, genika oi istoselides...
wraies k oi seires... PB, smallville, heroes, one tree hill...
wraia k ta anime... alla pws na to kanoume??? autos o aeras p anapneeis otan vgeis e3w s dinei mia diaforetiki ais8isi...
ase p ontas sav/ko elaxistoi einai msn k available gia kouventa... k me autous... ti kouventes na peis??? exeis e3antlisei ka8e mera k 8a arxisoun na se variountai..

m xei stri4ei! to 3erw... dn antexw na mai arrwsti... oxi... dn to antexw... ka8ilwmeni sto krevati... mia na zestainomai... mia na krywnw... k auto to ais8ima pws 8a moirastei to kefali m sta dio pou to pas???
ma ela p o kairos tis agglias dn epitrepei oute mia mikri voltitsa sto tetragwno afou vrexei k kanei kryo... ti nomizeis pws moni tis ir8e i grippi k me vrike???
ftaiw!!!eee gt an 3ekinas i wra 2.30 to prwi na pas se spiti filwn mesa sto kryo enw foras ena amaniko blouzaki k ena palto lepto enw 3ereis pws eisai kriwmenos k istera kata tis 4 epistrefeis sto spiti mesa se psixales, ti perimeneis anthrwpe m??
fisika k 8a arrwstiseis gia ta kala!!! ela omws p to eixa anagki ekeino to vradi na vre8w ekei... ela p to xa anagki na paw ekei mazi ts...

na s pw... dn to metaniwnw... isws twra na vrizw ton eauto m p me ka8ilwsa sto krevati... alla ekeini i nixta eixe kati stin atmosfaira p tin ekane magiki...
k einai kala paidia k ta paw... k allwste apoktousa ena pleonektima me to na pigaina ekei mazi t...

K avrio mia nea vdomada... pali me agxos... pali me apogoiteusi... pali me ta idia erwtimatika... k apla 8a perasei ipo8etw... xwris kati idiaitero xwris kati sigkekrimeno...
autos na rixnei kleftes maties pou k pou xwris na 3erw ti zitaei k gw na ton anazitw pote edw k pote ekei me tin parea t... k apla na min borw na milisw... na lew ena xazo 3ero geia... ti ili8io!!!

s' afinw... 8a kanw mia prospa8eia na sikwstw... bas k kataferw na vgw mesa apo kamia grafiki,kamia e3iswsi, kamia analysi sfalmatwn...

kalinixta k kali vdomada...

...to oneiro p xa8ike...(2)

Egra4a ton mai tou 2007...

Thimamai san xthes... Itan i mera twn apotelesmatwn twn pagkypriwn e3etasewn... Agwnia... Sta proswpa mas fovos.. Ki an dn ta katafername??? Brosta se mia othoni enos ipologisti... refresh kai 3ana refresh ena website... tlk ta apotelesmata itan ekei... Kai to 'xa dei... Fisiki Athinwn... Esteila kai minima... na vevaiwthw... Kai sto minima to idio... Itan ena xamogelo ikanopoiisis kai apletis xaras pou sximatistike sto proswpo m... to trito atomo sto opoio to eipa, itan autos... Sou rxomai a8ina api... Sigxaritiria mou eipe... ena aplo sigxaritiria... anarwtiomouna... ti na xe simvei??? gt dn me i8ele stin a8ina??? ekei opou itan ki autos??? Itan enas apo ts kaliterous m filous... Mba... skeftika... kati allo tha ton apasxolei... Xarike.. dn gnt na min xarike... Itan idi a8ina autos ki edine e3etaseis... Dn ante3a kai ton pira tilefwno.. Eixa katalavei swsta... ton i3era poly kala gia na min exw antilifthei pws dn moirastike ti xara m... "koritsi m xairomai p 8a sai konta m... iparxoun omws alla... 8a ta poume apo konta"... 3inisa... gt dn me ithele poia sti zwi tou? imastan toso kaloi filoi... Kati sinevaine edw...

Prwtes meres stin athina... Gemati xara... 8a gnwrzia nea atoma, ts simfoites m, 8a pigaina sti sxoli pou oneireuomouna... Dn pigaine allo... Kanonisame gia ena cafe... eixe xarei pou 8a me vlepe.. to akouga sti fwni sou, to vlepa sta minimata tou... Ton eida apo makria... ton agkalliasa, ton filisa... eida ena xamogelo p m leipse... ton eixa pethimisei toso poly... omws se liga lepta to xamogelo esvise... Milousa me toso enthousiasmo gia tin Athina... i athina m xe parei ta miala... to oneiro me eixe tyflwsei... to 3ere kala... Me stamatise...

"Koita... katalamvainw ton enthousiasmo sou... Omws edw i zwi dn einai toso eukoli... 8a to katalaveis me ton kairo... Apla gia sena anisixw... Na prosexeis poly... Auti i zougkla tis a8inas borei na se parasirei se mia mavri trypa ap opou dn iparxei epistrofi... 3ereis pws s'agapw poly, 3ereis pws dn sou krivw tpt kai o,ti sou lew, sto lew gia to kalo sou... I athina einai kati tromaktiko... otan pei na se pagideusei dn iparxei dromos diafigis..." Me pligwsan ta logia tou... xathike o kosmos apo brosta m... O filos m??? o anthrwpos ston opoio vasizomouna gia xronia na m leei auta ta pragmata??? Ti epidiwke??? ekeini ti stigmi m pire ena triantafillo... Eixe 2 bouboukia... To ena olanthisto kai to allo kleisto... Mou to dwse kai m pe: " to vlepeis auto? einai xaroumeno... katakokkino... Anthise, anoi3e ta filla tou kai kapoios to kopse kai 8a to stolisei sto spiti tou me xara... Oloi tha to thavmazoun... ta katafere... Omws auto edw to mikro? dn katafere na anoi3ei... to kalipse to diplano tou... gi auto dn 8a milaei kaneis... auto dn 8a to 8aumazei kaneis... Arage na kataferei na anthisei kai auto??? "

Dn i3era ti na pw... Sikwthika aprothima... skithrwpi... exontas xasei pia to xamogelo m kai efiga pairontas ws lafiro tis sinantisis ektos apo ton pikria pou m dwse enas filos, to triantafillo...

Irtha sto spiti... To vala se ena vazaki.. tou allaza kathe mera nero... Pragmati osoi to vlepan thavmazan to anthismeno boubouki alla to skepasmeno kai kleisto bouboukaki dn to vlepe kaneis... Evlepa to ena na megalwnei, na peftoun ta filla tou, na xanetai endo3a... ki omws to allo paremene kleisto kai marene mono... stin afaneia... Dn anthise pote...

Meta apo kapoious mines ta logia tou antixoun 3ana st autia m...Fraseis edw ki ekei... Asinartites tote... Me pliri diafaneia pia... "I athina einai mia zougkla... Na prosexeis...Dn iparxei epistrofi.. Na se parasirei... Zwi dn einai eukoli...."

Etsi egine... auti i aproswpi athina.. auti i zougkla katafere kai me nikise.. dn tin nikisa egw... Telika agapite m me i3eres toso kala... alla pantote me ton diko s tropo me afineis na to katalavw moni... Gia alli mia fora eixes dikaio... Dn prose3a arketa... dn se akousa... me paresire auti i melani opi kai dn iparxei dromos epistrofis gia tin athina... To oneiro xathike...Opws xathike kai to bouboukaki pou dn katafere na anoi3ei... Polla bouboukia anthizoun, ta katafernoun kai otan ta kataferoun ginontai kentro thaumasmou... Alla oxi ola... egw imouna ena apo auta ta asimanta mikra bouboukakia pou emeinan kleista... kai dn kataferan tpt... egw imoun ena akomi thima tou enthousiasmou kai tou oneirou... me paresire i poli... kai twra poia... me akolouthei opou kai na pw o,ti kai na kanw...

Siggnwmi pou dn se akousa...

...to oneiro p xa8ike...(1)

Egra4a ton semptevri tou 2005 ta akolou8a...

My future depends on this year... I'm sure! I am not going to succeed and my dream will end! Despite that, I will fight! I'll give all of myselft to get the grades I need to get into the university! It will be hard, very hard.. I know there will be nights that I won't sleep, nights that I will wet my pillow with my tears. There will be days that my powers will abandon me, but I'll try.... I set my goal : PHYSICS IN ATHENS! I will try! I will try hard... Really hard... Even if at the end I won't fullfil my target I will be proud because I've tried! I will be proud because the end of the road is not as important as the journey till the end. As Konstandinos Kavafis said:

Always keep Ithaca fixed in your mind

To arrive this is your ultimate goal.

Bud do not hurry the voyage at all

It is better to let it last for long years;

and even to anchor at the isle when you are old

rich with all that you have gained on the way

not expecting that Ithaca will offer you riches.

Ithaca has given you the beautiful voyage

Without her you would never have taken the road...

But she has nothing more to give you

And if you find her poor, Ithaca has not defrauded you.

With the great wisdom you have gained, with so much experience,

you surely have understood by then what Ithaca means.

...Perpatwntas stous dromous tis a8inas...16/5/07...

Perpatas se kentriko pezodromo tis a8inas... Mia thewritika megaloupoli... me tous gorgous tis rithmous, ton thorivo, ta paratragouda tis...

Perpatw monaxi... einai auto p m aresei... Moni na kanw voltes k na skeftomai... Pagwnw to xrono.... Pagwnw tous anthrwpous kai tous paratirw enan pros ena...

Einai oloi skithrwpoi... xamenoi o katheis sto diko tou kosmo... xamenoi sta vasana... stis ske4eis... Telika dn eimai i moni pou periplanietai moni... Oloi monoi einai... Vevaia kaneis dn vgainei gia na kanei volta... Oloi exoun ena proorismo... Lipimenoi, skithrwpoi, viastikoi mia iperoxi iliolousti mera dn stamatane gia na xamogelasoun, na milisoun sto diplano tous... proxwroun eutheia, me gorgo vima les kai kapoios tous exei parei apo pisw... 3epagwnw tin eikona... oi anthrwpoi einai lipimenoi!!! Gt tosi lipi mesa se auton ton kosmo? gt na iparxoume afou oli mas i zwi einai enas agwnas p mono pliges mas dinei?

Apofasizw na kathisw se ena pagkaki... Kathomai kai sinexizw na vlepw tous anthrwpous, ta em4ixa auta onta... i mipws oxi??? arage na iparxei akoma auti i psixi? arage na xathike mesa sti voui tis polis??? Mesa se oli auti ti mizeria kai tin thlipsi... an kapoios tolmisei kai gelasei ton koitane para3ena... les kai kanei kati paranomo... les kai einai kati afisiko stis meres mas na gelas!

Xameni stis skepseis m... me to pio melagxoliko ifos pou tha borousa na exw... Eimai ekei... epi enamisi wra kai paratirw ts anthrwpous... na vrw estw ki ena xamogelo mesa stin tosi katathliptiki atmosfaira... dn to vriskw... apogoiteuomai 3ana... Eixa gia alli mia fora dikaio! Dn a3izei na zoume tlk... Einai ena mataio paixnidi i zwi gemato pono!

Sikwnomai... eimai etoimi na kanw to megalo vima... Niwthw ena xeri ston wmo m... gyrnaw to kefali kai vlepw auto pou anazitousa toso kairo... Ena xamogelo... Ta xanw... Gt? Pws? Poios??? Gt twra??? Einai ekei brosta m... m dinei 3ana tin elpida... Iparxei estw ki ena xamogelo.... authormita sximatizetai k sta dika m xeili ena xamogelo... amidro alla dn pauei na einai xamogelo.... Einai ekei... akomi ekei... Mazi perpatame mexri to terma... Xwrizoume me ena xamogelo... kai mia iposxesi na xamogelasoume 3ana!

To 3erw... Esi ton exeis steilei... To 3erw, to niwthw... Esi apofasises pws dn exei fthasei i stigmi gia na rthw konta sou... Esi orises gia alli mia fora ti zwi m... Dn se malwnw... Sou lew apla euxaristw gia mikri iliaxtida elpidas mesa ston katamavro ourano....

S'agapw poli

Losing a friend... September 2005

Darkness has covered his world. Misery came into my head and I sank in a tunnel of despair. There is no doubt in my mind that the sun will never smile again, the sky will never stop crying and I'm in a valley of fear. Tonight the stars are out of reach cause they say you've left with the midnight train. I wish trains were never discovered! I'm staring at the dark sky. Look! There's a little lonely star, the only one left and it's a fallling one. It's my only hope existing. I close my eyes and pray... "Oh my God, bring the train back where it belongs" But God wouldn't listen. The clock is ticking and ticking and time never looks behind. I wonder why! My friend, in this cruel world, your sweet voice will never be heard again, your unique smile has been erased for ever, your smart eyes will never meet mine; never again. Your pictrure is lying bleeding in my arms, but your blood is the sun. The sun gives light to our eyes. I hope your runaway will open everyone's eyes so they won't try to follow your risky steps. Here's the desert of truth: Losing a friend is like losing a part of yourself.

Goodbye Stephanos... I will always love you and I will always remember what we had been through together...

pame paralia? summer 2008... ap tis xaroumenes meres

K na p erxetai o ioulios k o augoustos... I 8alassa fantazei oneiro…tn vlepeis k s rxetai na tis rixteis me ligoura… k to pairneis apofasi. Afineis pisw s to gegonos pws moiazeis me falena stn paralia, pws dn 3ereis na kolympas, pws s ti spaei otan to autokinito gemizei ammo k kaneis tin prwti s episke4i stin paralia… Wraia paralia dn lew me to café panw s’ auti gia ena drosistiko poto ana pasa stigmi… k i 8alassa arketa ka8ari 8a borouse na pei kaneis K afou sta8meuses apenanti perneis to dromo gia ti paralia… k ekei p tin agnanteueis k vlepeis tin anemelia twn paidiwn p paizoun me tin ammo na k o nauagosostis!!! Mbaaa dn ir8e na se swsei gt pnigikes… oute na sas pw tin ali8eia ton kovw gia an8rwpo p exei to nou t sto na swsei… perissotero sta mini k sta magiw paei to vlemma anti sti 8alassa me ti gnwsti ataka p peta stis ntopies “geia sas! Sas paei to mini!” Se 3erw an8rwpe m k m les pws m paei to mini??? K gia na to foraw simainei pws m paei! Xamogelas 3era min se poune k 3enerwti – an k o nauagosostis xalia einai – k pas na pareis ena krevataki na 3aplwseis bas k iremiseis… tsoup na s k to paidi me ta krevatakia… k ela p meta apo 2-3 episke4eis sti paralia se 8imatai k s kanei k kamaki… alla k autos xalia einai gia na leme k tou stravou to dikaio… perneis to krevataki plirwneis - xamogelas k edw 3era- k les epitelous pws 8a 3aplwseis na kaneis anenoxlita tn ilio8erapeia s k na apallageis apo ka8e eidous ske4eis k provlimata. Vevaia planasai iktra!!! Gt oi pakistanoi ap to apenanti café dn lene na se afisoun se isixia… me to p pires to krevataki k 3aplwses na tn prwto apo panw s na se rwtaei “you want smth???”” e oxi re anthrwpe m twra molis to kaimeno 3aplwsa… ase me ligo na idrwsw k istera… K MIN ME DIAKOPTEIS APO TIN ILIO8ERAPEIA M!!!! tn 3efortwnesai auton… dn pernane 2 lepta na s o deuteros!!! E OXI! Dn alla3a gnwmi mesa se 2 lepta… k se alla 2 lepta erxetai k o tritos… eee dn antexetai… ton agriokoitazeis k feugei! Se vlepw an8rwpe m… otan 8a 8elw kati 8a se 4a3w!!! K enw nomizeis pws tritwsan oi enoxliseis tis paralias apofasizeis na pas na pai3eis autes tis rimades tis raketes p se exei pri3ei I kolliti s… ela omws p einai les k paizeis tennis se tournoua me ti diafora oti anti tennis edw parakolou8oun esena me ligoura k anti ti raketa vlepoun tn kolo k to sti8os s? k na tan k knas kalos kyprios I estw elladitis vre paidaki m… kapoios me ton opoio na boreseis na kaneis k ena kamaki soi…??? Mbaa allodapoi ligourides einai p se koitazoun les k prwti fora vlepoun ginaika me magiw… k dwstou na peftei to balaki k na s autous olo xamogelo k me salia p na tous trexoun na rxontai na s tin fernoun… Eeee me nevra se exoune kanei oloi autoi… Afineis tis raketes k pas epitelous na kaneis auto to banio p legame…arketa krya i 8alassa… alla einai gia na drosisteis…siga siga proxwras mexri na kalyf8eis apo nero k na peseis se auti… alla mbaaa… dn se afinoune!!! Na o ka8e asxetos p erxetai k s rixnei nera prin prolaveis na valeis ta podia s sto nero… ase me re anthrwpe m na bw sto nero opws 8elwww k istera an 8eleis na r8eis na m kolliseis i na kaneis paixnidi mazi m ela!!!! Kai afou vgeis e3w k pas na 3aplwseis na stegnwseis prin ta mazeueis gia na feugeis… na s k pali to paidi ap ta krevatakia ekei apo panw s min se afisei k ligo na deis k kna soi anthrwp giro s (vevaia AN ipirxe )… S ti dinei k tlk apofasizeis na fygeis... ka8e allo para 3ekourasi k drosia stn paralia itan i mera s n telei...
Vevaia tin epomeni mera 3anapas k 3anapas k 3anapas… k na alla3eis paralia idia katastasi peripou 8a antimetwpiseis alla pleon sini8izeis… k apla grafeis tous pantes k ta panta k pernas ousiastiko xrono me tin parea s apolamvanontas ti 3egniasia twn kalokairinwn minwn otan eisai foitits!

..apoxairetwntas tn kollito.... 2/9/08

Dn 3erw gt alla otan einai na figw apo tn kypro gia na r8w agglia exw ena 4ixoplakwma... fetos ti mera prin na figw dn i8ela na dw kna... ola 8olwnan... k apla dn i8ela na apoxairetisw kna... poso mallon ton kollito m p i3era pws 8a efeuge se ligo k autos alla gia a8ina... kapou p 8a mastan mazi an egw dn eixa figei... k me piane to parapono... k apefeuga na t milisw mi m zitisei na vre8oume gia na ton apoxairetisw... tlk arga to vradi... vre8ikame... otan pia gyrise i mera... to teleutaio filiko atomo p eida prin figw itan autos... (to prwi eida k to vaftistiri m, ts goneis k tin aderfi m...) dn i8ela na pw ti le3i antio... k i3era pws 8a ton evlepa meta apo 4 mines... k gia mena einai polloi... ipervolika polloi... gt to kalokairi imastan ka8imerina mazi... k fovamai kiolas mi m ton kle4ei i a8ina... min t parei ta miala k me 3exasei...
dn eipa antio... e3w ap to spiti t m pe na prosexeis sis m... ton filisa k t pa mi me 3exaseis... k patisa gkazi... na figw oso pio grigora gnt... mi dei ta matia m ygra... mi me dei k me fovi8ei...


"dn s'apoxaraitw... opws xwrizame arga to vradi k legame ate reee ta leme... etsi k simera...
geia sou k ta leme... les k dn feugw les k dn paw pu8ena... apla i epomeni fora p 8a ta pume 8a nai se 4 mines... na prosexeis!!!"

10/05/08 - Gia fisikos dn kanw...

10/05/08 - kata ti diarkeia twn e3etasewn me to agxos sto apokoryfwma

kai einai fores p ka8omai k skeftomai an ola auta simvainoun ston ka8ena
i apla tigxainei na simvoun se mena...
einai fores p apla anarwtiemai... ti kanw se auto to kosmo?? gt sinomotoun ta panta enantion m???
gt prp opou vre8w na vasanizomami ki egw k osoi anthrwpoi einai girw m???
ma oso k na skeftw akri dn vriskw... apla me pernei apo katw... gemizei to proswpo apo dakrya (as einai... enidatwnoun tin epidermida mias k
tin afisame aperipoiiti ki auti...)
k 8a m peis pws na peripoii8eis ton eauto s otan s exoun valei ta dio s podia se ena papoutsi???
Pws na vreis xrono na kaneis to otidipote otan gia 1.5 vdomada dineis ka8e mera 3 mathimata???
K pws na xalarwseis estw ki ena lepto an ka8e vradi vlepeis e3iswseis k peiramatikes diata3eis na se trexoune apo pisw?
pws na xalarwseis an oi arithmoi k ta tripla oloklirwmata se plisiazoun me sataniko gelio???
pws na xalarwseis otan ta 109 slides t teleutaiou lecture astrofisikis moiazoun me kinezika k 3ereis pws exeis mono 3 wres sti dia8esi s gia na ta diavaseis???
K ola moiazoun ipervolika apelpistika... les k exei sinomotisei olo to siban gia na min ginw fisikos...
les k edw k dio xronia ta panta s lene pws to oneiro s dn einai pia efikto... Se exoune tara3ei... 3ipna, 3ekolla gia fisikos dn kaneis koritsi m...
Ki an i8ela anthrwpoi m tetoio programma k tetoia anorganwsia... emena stin athina m... sts filous m... sti zwi m...
alla vlepeis... ki ekei otan imoun egw, ta panta sinomotousan gia na figw..
GT GT GT se kna k pou8ena dn eimai po8iti??? gt ta panta me diwxnoun makria tous??? arage na nai auto to minima p perimena edw k 3 xronia?
to minima p m leei pws i zwi m prp na lavei telos??? k egw omws... once again to agnow... k to agnoww.. k xaropalevw.. anarwtiemai k xanomai sta adie3oda...

... Looking 4 answers ...

"...And as the search for self continues,
we look for answers everywhere...
in nature,
in god,
in tiny tragedies that may never be understood....
bt still... we are driven to it.
single-minded on one goal....
to find our purpose on this earth...
no matter what the ramification,
the friendships that may be hurt,
or the deals with the devil we need to make..."

Heroes S03E03...

otan pia dn 8a mai edw... 06/11/07

Mia mera 8a 3ipniseis k dn 8a mai dw... Min me gire4eis... epestre4a ekei akrivws opou anikw... stn kosmo twn nekrwn...
Mi me gire4eis... Exw idi figei... 8a to katalaveis... an k arga... Apo esena zitw monaxa mia xari...

Frontise to feretro m na einai stolismeno me mavra louloudia...to agapimeno m xrwma... ki esi na nti8eis sta kokkina...
opws katakokkino itan ntimeno to kormi m apo to aima otan me vrikan... to aima p kylouse stis fleves m gia sena,
to aima p kylise gia teleutaia fora stis fleves m gia sena ekeini ti mera... Dn 8a mai ekei na s skoupisw ta dakria gi auto min kla4eis...

Krata monaxa ena mavro triantafillo... einai to antikatoptrisma tis kardias k tis 4ixis mou gia oso ipirxes sti zwi m...

Mi dianoi8eis na kla4eis... 8imisou pws ekla4a egw arketa k gia ts dio mas... 8imisou pws twra pia eisai eleu8eros...

Babe u r nt alone in this world... bt u 'll be soon... So join me 2nite and say gdbye 2 our cruel world!!!

Gramma se sena... 03/03/07

Thelw na afisw ena gramma... Se sena pou me stiri3es...

Ena gramma pou na e3igei ti niwthw, na ekfrazei ta sinaisthimata mou... Ola osa exw stin kardia mou...
Poli diskolo na to petixw auto... Auta pou krivontai stin kardia kai tin psixi mou diskola apotipwnontai sto xarti
Diskola ginontai le3eis, protaseis...Diskola boroun na perigrapsoun aisthimata....

S' agapw... Isoun esi pou prwtos me ekanes na aisthanthw simantiki gia kapoion... Estw ki an paraponiomouna
kai elega pws eimai asximi pws dn sou a3izw.. vathia mesa mou eniwtha pws kati aisthanosoun gia mena.. kati mou vrikes
opote imoun kapws simantiki... S' euxaristw pou me pires ap to xeri... me voithises na 3etharrepsw se kapoia themata zwis...
S euxaristw pou mou edwses oles tis wraies stigmes... S euxaristw pou me kratises sfixta stin aggalia sou... pou me epnixes me ta filia sou
pou dn me afines na figw apo konta sou.... S euxaristw pou ekanes ipomoni mazi mou... S euxaristw...

A3izeis kai to 3erw.. Alloi lene pws dn a3izeis oti epatha i oti skeftomai na pathw... Omws egw to lew kai to fwnazw.. T' a3izeis
mwro mou!!! A3izeis ta panta gia mena.... I zwi xwris esena gia mena dn exei noima...

Kleinw ta matia kai to prwto pragma pou mou rxetai sto nou einai i eikona sou... na me filas.. na me xaideueis... na mou milas glyka..
thimamai o,ti perasame mazi.. sto spiti mou, sto dwmatio sou, sta cafes, stous dromous, stis paralies, sto autokinito, sto mikro mas meros...
Ta thimamai ola.. anaplathw kathe stigmi kai prospathw na tin kanw oso pio zwntani ginetai... Na zisw 3ana ti stigmi...

3afnika anoigw ta matia kai ola xanontai... Siniditopoiw pws eimai kai pali moni... Me mia kommatiasmeni kardia, me ena apsixo aggelo na mou krataei sintrofia...
siniditopoiw pws esi dn tha me 3anakratiseis agkalia, dn tha mou 3anaxamogelaseis glyka, dn tha me 3anafiliseis, dn tha 3anaginoume ena opws palia...
Siniditopoiw pws xathika gia panta apo ti zwi sou... Siniditopoiw pws dn iparxw gia sena kai me pernei to parapono..

Omws istera skeftomai pws etsi tha eisai eutixismenos... Einai o dromos pou diale3es.. Kai kala ekanes :) Kai etsi apofasizw ki egw na parw to dromo mou...
Enan drmo xwris epistrofi... ena dromo pou isws polloi thewrisoun lathos... Alla egw thewrw swsto..

Ena dromo pou piran polla nea paidia gia tin agapi... enan dromo pou piran polloi... enan dromo pou exei to sima monodromou kai sto vathos adie3odo...

Ta panta tha xathoun an peis kai ton diaveis... Ta panta.. Gia na epistrepseis prepei na prospathiseis poly.. na vreis fterouges na peta3eis...
ma ela pou fterouges dn iparxoun pia...

S afinw kardia mou...
S afinw me dakria sta matia

Tha se skeftomai kai tha se agapw opou kai na mai..
Na prosexeis mikre mou aggele
na prosexeis kai na sai kala!

Se latrevw
I kouklitsa sou...


{graftike alla dn t do8ike pote... gt apla i apofasi m na figw ap ti zwi dn egine pragmatikotita...}

...1/10/08...

1/10/08

Exw tromero ponokefalo... Ola m pane strava... Vare8ika auto to kosmo... 8ew na figw... na figwww!!! m' akous???? na apeleu8erw8w apo ola auta p me pligwnoun!

Gt se mena ola??? gt na ipoferw toso??? gt na mi borw na xamogelasw ali8ina gia mia fora????

Niw8w les k ekleisa sti xoufta m ena soro oneira alla se anypopto xrono fisi3e agria anemos k m ta pire makria afinontas me mono me na koitazw tin adeia m xoufta...

Dn 3erw ti m epiase apo4e... zw enan efialti gia ta kala... 8elw na vgw e3w k na arxisw na fwnazw, na fwnazw mexri na min exw pia fwni...

anazitw to balconi tou dwmatiou m sto spiti... na vgw ekei to vradi p oloi 8a koimountai, na agnanteusw ti 8alassa k na paratirisw t' astra p einai siwpila... dn se krinoun, dn s 8imwnoun, de se pligwnoun... apla se akoune k s kanoun sintrofia...

To apex8anomai auto to ais8ima tis mona3ias... zitw pisw ti zwi m, ta atoma p me agapoun... alla einai les k exw kleisei portes k para8yra k tous afinw olous e3w... Fovamai min eisvaloun ston eswteriko m kosmo...

Fovamai tlk tous anthrwpous... Gt opws exoun tin ikanotita na se anevazoun sta sinnefa, exoun k tin ikanotita na se rixnoun oso pio xamila gnt... Exoun tin ikanotita na se metatrepoun se ena pioni p metakinoun opote 8loun k otan 8eloun autoi... e3ou k i apofasi m... na meinw gia panta moni... Etsi 8a xw egw ton elegxo t eautou m... Ki omws gia na meineis monos, ontas o anthrwpos koinwniko on anazitei panta ti sintrofia, prp na vreis to antikatastato tis oikogeneias, t sintrofou... Auto sini8ws to vriskeis mes ap ta oneira s gia ti zwi... ma ela p auta m teleiwsan k ta magazia dn poulane tetoia...

Ap tis 4 mexri tis 8 ka8omouna brosta tin o8oni tou ypologisti k diavaza ena blog... meta ta dio prwta posts emfanistikan ta prwta dakrya... k istera egine klama me ligmous gt me pire s ena ta3idi sto xrono... Prin tessera xronia, prin tria, prin dio... Ola ta gegonota p sinevisan k anagkasan ta oneria m k tis elpides m na me egkatalei4oun... k pleon de zw alla anapnew... kai einai asximo auto gt simainei pws to mono oneiro p s apemeine einai o 8anatos! Eirwniko! k oi alloi lene pws o 8anatos pairnei ta oneira makria pws gnt na einai o idios ena ap auta???

Isws omws k to blog na m kane kalo... siniditopoiisa pws ekeinos itan i aformi... i aitia krivetai mesa m... k episis katalava pws dn eimai i moni p skeftetai me "eidiko" tropo... Tote eniwsa kalitera... Stamatisan ta dakrya... stamatisan oi lygmoi... alla i 8li4i emeine.. emeine ekei na me sintrofeuei apo4e mazi me ti mousiki m...

Ena 8limmeno proswpo, mia kardia 3ana matwmeni, dio vourkwmena matia se kalinixtizoun... 3eroun pws 8a 'r8eis sta oneira - i mallon efialtes- 8a enteineis tn kata8li4i alla pia, dn ta peirazei... exoun sini8isei autn ton tropo zwis...

Epistrofi sta blogs...

kapoioi grafoun se blogs... kapoioi se imerologia...kapoioi apla ta afinoun ola mono se ske4eis...
Milousa me ena filo - gnwsto 8a ton elega kalitera... pleon m pairnei poli xrono gia na onomasw enan anthrwpo filo - k me efere pisw stin idea twn blogs... tote p egrafa k egw se ena tetoio diko m ka8eti, ka8e m ske4i k sinais8ima... dn eimai sigouri an 8elw na epsitre4w... an 8elw na borei o ka8enas na vlepei ta kommatia tis 4ixis m... fovamai mi m kle4oun kna k 8a nai tote i 4ixi m san ena puzzle p paleveis xronia na tairia3eis ta kommatia tou k sto telos vlepeis pws einai akator8wto gt ena ap auta leipei... kapou to exases stn poreia... Tosa kommatia pleon p nai i 4ixi m, einai toso eukolo kapoia na peta3oun makria... k ante pali na ta mazeueis... 8a m peis mazeuontai ta kommatia tis 4ixis? mazeuontai ta 8ri4ala apo ena spasmeno gialli??? toulaxiston omws exeis mia elpida pws einai ekei ola k 8a 3anaftia3eis ti 4ixi...

Einai omws pali k stigmes p niw8eis tin anagki na ta dei k kapoios allos... kapoiso p borei kan na mi se 3erei alla viwnei paromoia pragmata me sena k me mono mia le3i tou ena view t, s dinei tin ais8isi pws nai!dn eisai i moni p ais8anetai etsi... kai einai tosa polla... k tosoi oi anthrwpoi p kryvoun tous ali8inous eautous ts pisw apo proswpeia xaras, eutixias k epitxias... Einai tosoi polloi oi monaxikoi anthrwpoi p boroun na se katalavoun...

Etsi apofasisa na gra4w... Dn to epidiwkw... Siggnwmi, erxetai sto mialo m asinais8ita... 3erw pws perasa polla alla ta blogs einai sinifasmena me auton... Isws na tan k autos o logos p edw k dio xronia apexw ap auta... se mia prospa8eia m na ton diw3w oristika ap ti zwi m... to omologw dn me voithw... isws va8ia mesa m na min i8ela pote na me egkatalei4ei estw k i ske4i t... alla eprepe gia to diko m kalo alla k twn girw m...

Kai einai tosa polla auta p ton fernoun sto mialo mou... Mousikoi, xwroi, sini8eies, fwtografies... 8a svisoun ola siga - siga... autos pia dn kanei kako sti zwi m... exei ginei apla mia selida sto vivlio tis zwis m... Autin einai p fovamai... TI ZWI! k to parado3o einai pws fovamai pws auti dn 8a me egkatalei4ei pote... Dinami na tin afisw egw dn exw alli..(to exw idi dokimasei arketes fores) k twra apla anamenw... anamenw ti stigmi p apla 8a me kalinixtisei me to fili tou Iouda, paradidontas me sto 8anato... Auton dn ton fovamai... Ok.. isws ligo. Isws gi auto na mai k to mono koritsi p kiklofora mono se erimous dromous i wra 2 , 3, 4 to prwi xwris ixnos fovou... Isws gt dn exei noima i zwi m ara dn fovamai gia kati pia...

Kai sinexisw etsi to dromo t blog m... katakriveia arxizw kainourgio... me skopo tin anazitisi tou xamenou noimatos ts zwis k tis ipar3is m!

"on broken wings i'm falling
and it won't be long
i got to find that meaning
i'll search for so long..."

Kalo m ta3idi sta xamena monopatia tis zwis m loipon...